I was always interested in philosophy, and what it means to live a good life, particularly given the contradictions and unfairness that we see all around us and experience internally. This â€“ early childhood experiences of both extreme trauma and exquisite delight, awareness of the natural world in all its wonder and beauty, paradoxical family, culture, and educational demands â€“ shaped me, and that makes me no different, fundamentally, from you.
I started practicing yoga as a teen, deeply dysmorphic, depressed, bulimic and unable to articulate the anger and fear that gripped me. I wrote, and ran, and thought, and continued to function, fragmented and locked in, even as I drove myself down a deep canal of nihilism that drove me to take death-wish level risks on a regular basis. Learning to think critically, practicing philosophy, running and writing all helped to keep me alive. That, and enormous good fortune.